Frustration

"a feeling of dissatisfaction, often accompanied by anxiety or depression, resulting from unfulfilled needs or unresolved problems"

We all feel down and for what ever reason you act differently. You dont know why, you just do. The mind is somewhere else, deep in thought thinking every single consequence of what if.

You hear that thing called "noise". You hear people talking, but its either just below or above what you care to hear.... my definition of noise.

As humans, we feel the need to either let go our feelings or store them in one place, never quite hitting the delicate balance. You want to say something, you destined to. But instead you either say nothing, or you say something out of context. Every word or comment is said the wrong way, you dont know why, its just does. Can never say the right thing at the right time.

But then there is the willingness to act. Either talk about it, create "noise" or just do it. Sometimes the "just do it" is just too much, you cant split multiple ways at the same time. Now that is frustration.

The choice of what, when, how you do it, with the least amount of consequence and look outside the box.

I do now, or I dont. But when I do, the choice will make a change. Either accept the change or dont do the doing of it.

Maybe the initiative to act is stronger than worrying about what affect it has. Maybe stop the initiative to learn, to progress, just do and think of more important things.

Then that way, you might learn something different.