Well its coming to the end of the year, I took some time out last night to play with Zbrush. I have posted on my deviantart page the first Zbrush model base mesh I have played with and have had some success.
Happy New Year to all. And let the good times roll :)
Wednesday 31 December 2008
Tuesday 23 December 2008
Deviant Update
Just a quick one to say I have updated my deviantart page with two new pics.
Happy Yule/Crimbo/Christmas/Christmastide/Noel everyone.
Happy Yule/Crimbo/Christmas/Christmastide/Noel everyone.
Tuesday 2 December 2008
Its Been a While
As the title suggests, its been a while since I blogged.
I have been keeping myself busy. I have a 500Gb external HDD arriving at Xmas which is going to give me the ability to reshuffle my current project setup within Maya. My PC is a bit of a mess with files everywhere. I hope to reshuffle and hit Maya/Zbrush hard.
This week I have been part playing World of Warcraft, getting an idea to model something and switching to Maya :) As one of my friends mentioned some time ago, the mind thinks at 100Gb/s, the hand about 100mb/s. Bah! I want to have more time to do more!!
I have not posted on my deviantart page for a while as I want to do the best I can do and get better quality items on show.
One thing I have learnt in the last two weeks, ff I could make time, I would use time, but how could I ever have time if I dont use time................
I have been keeping myself busy. I have a 500Gb external HDD arriving at Xmas which is going to give me the ability to reshuffle my current project setup within Maya. My PC is a bit of a mess with files everywhere. I hope to reshuffle and hit Maya/Zbrush hard.
This week I have been part playing World of Warcraft, getting an idea to model something and switching to Maya :) As one of my friends mentioned some time ago, the mind thinks at 100Gb/s, the hand about 100mb/s. Bah! I want to have more time to do more!!
I have not posted on my deviantart page for a while as I want to do the best I can do and get better quality items on show.
One thing I have learnt in the last two weeks, ff I could make time, I would use time, but how could I ever have time if I dont use time................
Friday 21 November 2008
Back In The Day
Got to into bed last night and having one of the “remembering something random” episodes. I remember sending a letter to the Head Teacher of the Primary School I attended as she was retiring to wish her well. This was last year and I remember receiving a letter back.
This got me thinking. I have had this before. My memory is not that good before I was 13 for one reason or another. But this was interesting. Slowly I was piecing together bits, events that happened when I was at primary school.
I remember the final term in year 6 receiving an endeavour award. I was sitting at the top left of the assembly hall and remember getting up to walk to the front to receive the award with the students and teachers clapping their hands.
Then I started to remember other things. In year 5, I sat at the back right of the room near the green door. Back then, if I was to walk out of the door, turn left, directly to the left was where we kept our bags and lunch boxes. A small wall separated that from a PC and shelves cover in green trays that held paper clips, rulers, etc.
In Year 4 I sat at the back, middle of the classroom. I remember with 2 of my friends (who I am still in contact with today) drawing cars on 2D graphics paper and colouring them in black felt tip, over and over again. Lol
There was a lot more I could remember but I cant be bothered to write all the information here. Then I kind of snapped out of it, feeling really, really hot. Next thing I was probably asleep.
Well I can say on that is, if the mind is piecing fact together, or, filling the gaps with fiction to continue the story line, all good fun……….
This got me thinking. I have had this before. My memory is not that good before I was 13 for one reason or another. But this was interesting. Slowly I was piecing together bits, events that happened when I was at primary school.
I remember the final term in year 6 receiving an endeavour award. I was sitting at the top left of the assembly hall and remember getting up to walk to the front to receive the award with the students and teachers clapping their hands.
Then I started to remember other things. In year 5, I sat at the back right of the room near the green door. Back then, if I was to walk out of the door, turn left, directly to the left was where we kept our bags and lunch boxes. A small wall separated that from a PC and shelves cover in green trays that held paper clips, rulers, etc.
In Year 4 I sat at the back, middle of the classroom. I remember with 2 of my friends (who I am still in contact with today) drawing cars on 2D graphics paper and colouring them in black felt tip, over and over again. Lol
There was a lot more I could remember but I cant be bothered to write all the information here. Then I kind of snapped out of it, feeling really, really hot. Next thing I was probably asleep.
Well I can say on that is, if the mind is piecing fact together, or, filling the gaps with fiction to continue the story line, all good fun……….
Thursday 20 November 2008
Good Luck Sis. :(
MS can cause a wide variety of symptoms. Many people experience only a few symptoms and it is unlikely that anyone will develop them all.
People can have different symptoms at different times and, although some are very common, there is no typical pattern that applies to everyone.
Symptoms of MS usually appear in episodic acute periods of worsening (relapses, exacerbations, bouts or attacks), in a gradually-progressive deterioration of neurologic function, or in a combination of both.
MS is not considered a hereditary disease. However, genetics may play a role in determining a person's susceptibility to MS.
People can have different symptoms at different times and, although some are very common, there is no typical pattern that applies to everyone.
Symptoms of MS usually appear in episodic acute periods of worsening (relapses, exacerbations, bouts or attacks), in a gradually-progressive deterioration of neurologic function, or in a combination of both.
MS is not considered a hereditary disease. However, genetics may play a role in determining a person's susceptibility to MS.
Monday 17 November 2008
Abort, Retry, Never Fail
I have not updated my blog in a while. My reasons were simple. Too much going on.
I got so enthusiastic of doing different things, I lost touch on my own priorities. I did not go swimming last week as I got my new graphics tablet.
So I took time out over the weekend. I pulled from the music archives some really old hip-hop, rap, garage and new-metal albums. Everything from Missy Elliot, Nas, Puff Daddy, So Solid Crew , Limp Bizkit, Slipknot and listened away.
Why did I like this music? Lol. I think a few years ago I was going through the stage of not knowing what music I liked, so I listened to what ever was in the charts at the time. From there, I moved on to progressive music, Mr Scruff, Rob D, Dillinja, Lemon Jelly, etc.
Oh how the times have changed. I think I will stick with One Republic, Linkin Park, Arctic Monkeys and Snow Patrol for the moment :)
Besides that. I re-addressed what I wanted to do. I dont seem to have enough hours to do everything so i got to manage what I can do better.
1. Play with wife (easy tiger)
2. Maya/Zbrush all the funky modelling stuff
3. Swimming/Football
4. World of Warcraft, other online games.
Cycling. Off the list at the moment till next year. Too cold and I am still doing round-robin to work in the morning. Pool, not sure whether to do it each week or not at the moment.
Did I miss anything off my list? :)
I got so enthusiastic of doing different things, I lost touch on my own priorities. I did not go swimming last week as I got my new graphics tablet.
So I took time out over the weekend. I pulled from the music archives some really old hip-hop, rap, garage and new-metal albums. Everything from Missy Elliot, Nas, Puff Daddy, So Solid Crew , Limp Bizkit, Slipknot and listened away.
Why did I like this music? Lol. I think a few years ago I was going through the stage of not knowing what music I liked, so I listened to what ever was in the charts at the time. From there, I moved on to progressive music, Mr Scruff, Rob D, Dillinja, Lemon Jelly, etc.
Oh how the times have changed. I think I will stick with One Republic, Linkin Park, Arctic Monkeys and Snow Patrol for the moment :)
Besides that. I re-addressed what I wanted to do. I dont seem to have enough hours to do everything so i got to manage what I can do better.
1. Play with wife (easy tiger)
2. Maya/Zbrush all the funky modelling stuff
3. Swimming/Football
4. World of Warcraft, other online games.
Cycling. Off the list at the moment till next year. Too cold and I am still doing round-robin to work in the morning. Pool, not sure whether to do it each week or not at the moment.
Did I miss anything off my list? :)
Tuesday 11 November 2008
Woot
I got my graphics tablet, woot! :)
I am now going to model and draw for hours. Bring it on Zbrush, muahahahaha.
Can I borrow someone for "reference" material?
I am now going to model and draw for hours. Bring it on Zbrush, muahahahaha.
Can I borrow someone for "reference" material?
Monday 10 November 2008
Tarots Know Best
Seriously I am kidding.
Yeah I had my life mapped out on 10 cards over the weekend. I dont believe a bit of colour on a card with words that could mean a 100 things actually say anything about my life.
But it got me thinking. Whether you believe in what the stars are telling you or not, I take it with a pinch of salt. With a bit of pepper and grill thoroughly until hot then eat :)
But this is a new week. The graphics tablet will arrive tomorrow, then we start getting serious with this modelling something special lark.
My next target is to buy a 2nd HDD, whether it be internal or external. I am now working out how much I have spent on equipment so I can do this 3D modelling stuff.
Details available soon. Ssssh, just dont tell the other half :)
Yeah I had my life mapped out on 10 cards over the weekend. I dont believe a bit of colour on a card with words that could mean a 100 things actually say anything about my life.
But it got me thinking. Whether you believe in what the stars are telling you or not, I take it with a pinch of salt. With a bit of pepper and grill thoroughly until hot then eat :)
But this is a new week. The graphics tablet will arrive tomorrow, then we start getting serious with this modelling something special lark.
My next target is to buy a 2nd HDD, whether it be internal or external. I am now working out how much I have spent on equipment so I can do this 3D modelling stuff.
Details available soon. Ssssh, just dont tell the other half :)
Thursday 6 November 2008
Dinner Party - What Class Am I?
So we go in. No mucking about. The jackets are left with the female at the door who greats everyone and wishes them all a very good night. There are 4 people serving champagne and there is complimentary food provided by the hosts.
The atmosphere gets interesting as more and more people start piling in to the venue. Its comfortable, there is enough people to fill up the venue without it being cramped.
As more people come in, groups start to seperate off. There is a few minutes while everyone works each other out and some try to mingle, others just chat with their partners or friends they know from work or other activity.
All this interests me. I am in the corner with a champagne flute in one hand dressed in a tux, with parnsip crisps in the other. I watch as people start chatting about their, jobs, their social lives and James bond stuff.
I can tell you the woman in the opposite corner with her dark purple dress, aged between 40 - 45 has probably two kids. Both have been to University and she either works as a PA or head of a respectable organisation. Her Husband is also fairly well off working as either the owner or Director of a Insurance Broker. The young male walking with black trouers and purple striped shirt is probably at Uni. His girlfriend (no rings on) is probably doing an art degree or studying English/History. I made that decisiong based on the black dress she is wearing which is comfortable with a suitable brown/red scarf that hides her insecurity in what she is wearing.
By this time, I can tell you that most of the females in the room I have segregated off in to categories. The ones who seem older who have children and have dinner parties all the time, those slightly younger who join their families for get togethers frequently and those slightly worried about what they are wearing and are trying to fit in.
And there is always one. A young lady dresses as a bond villain in a quite revealing blue/white dress with blonde pigtails. She provides some much needed conversational topic for the night.
I start to mingle and watch peoples eyes as they meet new people and you can tell when they want to talk to someone else. They say nothing but their body language towards that person switches off and in the opposite direction. And those you switch away as you run out of things to say. The champagne and orange juice is in full flow and the atmosphere is getting louder as more people are chatting.
The majority of the males in the room are not alpha. They have either been there and done that or I just charmed to be there. I joke with a fairly old man in his late 40s, early 50s about joining the local rabble to the cinema to watch the Quantum of Solace. We discuss (and with his wife) kemosabi peas and the rice chilli bites on offer. A charming chap.
So while I am doing all this figuring out and enjoying the fravolities of the evening, I wonder who was doing the same?
Could I host a dinner party with the same kind of open ended execution where the people create the atmosphere and make it comfortable and charming? Well only one way to find out. Another time to roll out the tux/suit for another evening.........
The atmosphere gets interesting as more and more people start piling in to the venue. Its comfortable, there is enough people to fill up the venue without it being cramped.
As more people come in, groups start to seperate off. There is a few minutes while everyone works each other out and some try to mingle, others just chat with their partners or friends they know from work or other activity.
All this interests me. I am in the corner with a champagne flute in one hand dressed in a tux, with parnsip crisps in the other. I watch as people start chatting about their, jobs, their social lives and James bond stuff.
I can tell you the woman in the opposite corner with her dark purple dress, aged between 40 - 45 has probably two kids. Both have been to University and she either works as a PA or head of a respectable organisation. Her Husband is also fairly well off working as either the owner or Director of a Insurance Broker. The young male walking with black trouers and purple striped shirt is probably at Uni. His girlfriend (no rings on) is probably doing an art degree or studying English/History. I made that decisiong based on the black dress she is wearing which is comfortable with a suitable brown/red scarf that hides her insecurity in what she is wearing.
By this time, I can tell you that most of the females in the room I have segregated off in to categories. The ones who seem older who have children and have dinner parties all the time, those slightly younger who join their families for get togethers frequently and those slightly worried about what they are wearing and are trying to fit in.
And there is always one. A young lady dresses as a bond villain in a quite revealing blue/white dress with blonde pigtails. She provides some much needed conversational topic for the night.
I start to mingle and watch peoples eyes as they meet new people and you can tell when they want to talk to someone else. They say nothing but their body language towards that person switches off and in the opposite direction. And those you switch away as you run out of things to say. The champagne and orange juice is in full flow and the atmosphere is getting louder as more people are chatting.
The majority of the males in the room are not alpha. They have either been there and done that or I just charmed to be there. I joke with a fairly old man in his late 40s, early 50s about joining the local rabble to the cinema to watch the Quantum of Solace. We discuss (and with his wife) kemosabi peas and the rice chilli bites on offer. A charming chap.
So while I am doing all this figuring out and enjoying the fravolities of the evening, I wonder who was doing the same?
Could I host a dinner party with the same kind of open ended execution where the people create the atmosphere and make it comfortable and charming? Well only one way to find out. Another time to roll out the tux/suit for another evening.........
Not Giving It Up
34 lengths last night, woot.
36 next week. It's all good.
One small step at a time. I plan to go swimming twice a week. Get in the mindset of doing x amount of lengths and just do it.
So this modelling lark. Its going well. Zbrush is soo cool to use. I can understand why 3d artists use it so much.
My plan today is get stuff done. If its needs doing, do it and move on to the next thing. What more can you ask for.
36 next week. It's all good.
One small step at a time. I plan to go swimming twice a week. Get in the mindset of doing x amount of lengths and just do it.
So this modelling lark. Its going well. Zbrush is soo cool to use. I can understand why 3d artists use it so much.
My plan today is get stuff done. If its needs doing, do it and move on to the next thing. What more can you ask for.
Wednesday 5 November 2008
Workflow
So I was up late last night. I am watching videos about 3D modelling workflow. I have a better understanding on what type of modelling I should use to get the best results for any model.
So now I have got that sorted, carry on modelling and add something new, Zbrush. Now that looks like fun.
Give me a peice of clay and I will build you a blob, give me Zbrush and I will create a master piece. Give me a few weeks though :)
I spoke to Portsmouth University yesterday. They have a Maya Guru starting soon. I am going to suck out all his knowledge, put it in a can and keep it next to my PC for future use.
Going back to workflow, what am I doing today?
So now I have got that sorted, carry on modelling and add something new, Zbrush. Now that looks like fun.
Give me a peice of clay and I will build you a blob, give me Zbrush and I will create a master piece. Give me a few weeks though :)
I spoke to Portsmouth University yesterday. They have a Maya Guru starting soon. I am going to suck out all his knowledge, put it in a can and keep it next to my PC for future use.
Going back to workflow, what am I doing today?
Tuesday 4 November 2008
Epic Fail
"to fall short of success or achievement in something expected, attempted, desired, or approved"
Darn it. Sat in front of my PC last night for 4 hours trying to get something in Maya. Could I do it, could I see what I wanted to model. Hell no. The mind is running tricks on me as I get something down I think looks good only for me to delete 30 seconds later shouting "its pants".
I call it modellers block :)
Dont know what was wrong with me. I usually get in the zone and just do it. Oh well, it happens. Roll on tonight, I will design the APU (Armoured Personal Unit). Just get back up and try, try again. If anything, I am not short of persistance this week.
Darn it. Sat in front of my PC last night for 4 hours trying to get something in Maya. Could I do it, could I see what I wanted to model. Hell no. The mind is running tricks on me as I get something down I think looks good only for me to delete 30 seconds later shouting "its pants".
I call it modellers block :)
Dont know what was wrong with me. I usually get in the zone and just do it. Oh well, it happens. Roll on tonight, I will design the APU (Armoured Personal Unit). Just get back up and try, try again. If anything, I am not short of persistance this week.
Monday 3 November 2008
Relax, Chill... It's Only Monday
It's a new week. When I commented last week that "something random would happen", it did.
A lesson learned.
Congratulations to Lewis Hamilton winning the Formula One Championship. I feel sorry for ITV in a way, losing the rights to broadcast. I am happy that its moving to the BBC though as no more adverts!! And unlucky to David Coulthard. Once again the love affair of crashing with Nakajima continues.............
I am assuming that Martin Brundle and the rest of the team are not moving to BBC which is a shame. The team have done an amazing job over the last few years.
Can not wait for Thursday, watching James Bond "Quantum of Solace" at a charity ball. This week will be a lighter, fluffier one I hope. Less intense and more, whats the word I am looking for...........relaxed
A lesson learned.
Congratulations to Lewis Hamilton winning the Formula One Championship. I feel sorry for ITV in a way, losing the rights to broadcast. I am happy that its moving to the BBC though as no more adverts!! And unlucky to David Coulthard. Once again the love affair of crashing with Nakajima continues.............
I am assuming that Martin Brundle and the rest of the team are not moving to BBC which is a shame. The team have done an amazing job over the last few years.
Can not wait for Thursday, watching James Bond "Quantum of Solace" at a charity ball. This week will be a lighter, fluffier one I hope. Less intense and more, whats the word I am looking for...........relaxed
Saturday 1 November 2008
And I Quote
“Chess problems demand from the composer the same virtues that characterize all worthwhile art: originality, invention, conciseness, harmony, complexity, and splendid insincerity”
- Vladimir Nabokov
"Play the opening like a book, the middle game like a magician, and the endgame like a machine"
- Spielmann
- Vladimir Nabokov
"Play the opening like a book, the middle game like a magician, and the endgame like a machine"
- Spielmann
Anger
"to arouse anger or wrath within"
We all have been there. You have fun you play games, but something triggers an incident that has unsuspecting consequences. You try and understand what triggered the scenario, why you feel the way you do.
Then some people see a different side of you.
You dont like showing it, you have no remorse, just unconditional rage and you sit back. But you take time to think of all the different ways to handle a situation, you brace yourself for almost immediate destruction. You dont like the anger within but need to find a release mechanism. Looking under every stone until you have the answer and when you have the answer, spontaneous combustion. Letting rip of all the anger, that rage and why?
Because sometimes these things happen. Normally you let it drop, you attempt to resolve the situation methodically and with thought. For once that large wall between reality and self-control are merged, the catalyst has suffered cataclysmic meltdown.
But I am not like that. Time has passed and the anger waits. It bides its time to execute the next move. And when it does it will be done with control, without subsidence and without remorse.
This time, this time, its gone too far.
We all have been there. You have fun you play games, but something triggers an incident that has unsuspecting consequences. You try and understand what triggered the scenario, why you feel the way you do.
Then some people see a different side of you.
You dont like showing it, you have no remorse, just unconditional rage and you sit back. But you take time to think of all the different ways to handle a situation, you brace yourself for almost immediate destruction. You dont like the anger within but need to find a release mechanism. Looking under every stone until you have the answer and when you have the answer, spontaneous combustion. Letting rip of all the anger, that rage and why?
Because sometimes these things happen. Normally you let it drop, you attempt to resolve the situation methodically and with thought. For once that large wall between reality and self-control are merged, the catalyst has suffered cataclysmic meltdown.
But I am not like that. Time has passed and the anger waits. It bides its time to execute the next move. And when it does it will be done with control, without subsidence and without remorse.
This time, this time, its gone too far.
Friday 31 October 2008
Temptation
"something that tempts, entices, or allures."
Sometimes you have feelings that pull you away from the normality of your day to day living. It's something new, it has spice, it has something that makes you think, I could do that, even better, I want to do that.
You sit back and think, but what if I did? What are the consequences of my actions? Do I just carry on doing what am I doing or do I mix it up?
I say, you are only tempted because its something new.
But whatever it is, what ever you want to do, check your options and if makes sense and you understand the consequences...................do it :)
Sometimes you have feelings that pull you away from the normality of your day to day living. It's something new, it has spice, it has something that makes you think, I could do that, even better, I want to do that.
You sit back and think, but what if I did? What are the consequences of my actions? Do I just carry on doing what am I doing or do I mix it up?
I say, you are only tempted because its something new.
But whatever it is, what ever you want to do, check your options and if makes sense and you understand the consequences...................do it :)
Thursday 30 October 2008
I'm Alive
So I did the lengths I aimed for last night, oh and my new PC monitor turned up /drool.
But something hit home this morning. Far too much reminiscing and probably thinking too much but in some ways.... I should not be here. Not as in right at this moment, where I am, but not here at all.
I could write pages on what ifs. I am not going to delve too deep into the past, whats the point I am alive and living now. So you only live once, you only have one opportunity, live it as much as you can and do not faulter.
The only advice I can give is, learn from your mistakes, live with them and set small goals so that everyday you can wake up and feel like you have achieved something. I want my legacy to that of pride. I am happy with what I have, what I want I do and doing something with my life.
I am alive, I am living in now and I am living with it.
But something hit home this morning. Far too much reminiscing and probably thinking too much but in some ways.... I should not be here. Not as in right at this moment, where I am, but not here at all.
I could write pages on what ifs. I am not going to delve too deep into the past, whats the point I am alive and living now. So you only live once, you only have one opportunity, live it as much as you can and do not faulter.
The only advice I can give is, learn from your mistakes, live with them and set small goals so that everyday you can wake up and feel like you have achieved something. I want my legacy to that of pride. I am happy with what I have, what I want I do and doing something with my life.
I am alive, I am living in now and I am living with it.
Wednesday 29 October 2008
Here Today, Gone Tomorrow
Well the day is going well. very chilled compared to last week at least. Trying an apple again for the first time in months. For some reason I could not stomach fresh fruit, but this is, well, staying down :)
The new PC monitor arrives tomorrow. I am glad that is out the way, my friend can finally have his back. I have been doing a lot of reminiscing over the last two days. Remember what I have, what I have lost and what I have achieved.
Putting things back in to a clear perspective.
Well swimming tonight and chilling is on the menu. I have a 3D modelling task I need to complete by Saturday. As most projects, why do I have to wait to the last minute.
Maybe I should read that Time Management book at home as well as work.........
The new PC monitor arrives tomorrow. I am glad that is out the way, my friend can finally have his back. I have been doing a lot of reminiscing over the last two days. Remember what I have, what I have lost and what I have achieved.
Putting things back in to a clear perspective.
Well swimming tonight and chilling is on the menu. I have a 3D modelling task I need to complete by Saturday. As most projects, why do I have to wait to the last minute.
Maybe I should read that Time Management book at home as well as work.........
Tuesday 28 October 2008
How You Like Them Apples
Good day today,
Last night I played 6 games of bowling with the other half. I had been thinking a lot about what I wear, when I wear certain stuff and thought "why dont I try something a lil smaller".
So I popped down to Asda and bought a new pair of jeans. When I got back indoors I decided to try them on straight away. I kind of feared what would happen. Lol, they fitted and that to me says one thing, result.
So all that football and swimming has been paying off. Bike is fixed but not using it this week till Friday due to stuff I got to do at home. Time to re-address some existing goals and push things forward.
Maybe learning new stuff and feeling good is the perfect marriage of balance.
I have no real balance, haha, maybe that should be on one of my list to do. Learn physical as well as mental balance.
So feeling good, looking better, what more do you want.
Oh yeah, that new 22" widescreen LG tft monitor :)
Last night I played 6 games of bowling with the other half. I had been thinking a lot about what I wear, when I wear certain stuff and thought "why dont I try something a lil smaller".
So I popped down to Asda and bought a new pair of jeans. When I got back indoors I decided to try them on straight away. I kind of feared what would happen. Lol, they fitted and that to me says one thing, result.
So all that football and swimming has been paying off. Bike is fixed but not using it this week till Friday due to stuff I got to do at home. Time to re-address some existing goals and push things forward.
Maybe learning new stuff and feeling good is the perfect marriage of balance.
I have no real balance, haha, maybe that should be on one of my list to do. Learn physical as well as mental balance.
So feeling good, looking better, what more do you want.
Oh yeah, that new 22" widescreen LG tft monitor :)
Monday 27 October 2008
Past, Present and Future
So this weekend, a not so eventful one. Bicycle is fixed, ready to go. Did some cleaning, bit of reminiscing and thats it.
This week is carry on with swimming, getting work done and football hopefully Thursday.
I mean what could happen.....
This week is carry on with swimming, getting work done and football hopefully Thursday.
I mean what could happen.....
Friday 24 October 2008
Patience
"an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay: to have patience with a slow learner. "
Or not as the case may be. Come on it's Friday and I have poker tonight. About time this week is over with, roll on the weekend.
Time is on my side today. Must use it wisely.
Looking back, its been an up and down week, but isnt every week?
Or not as the case may be. Come on it's Friday and I have poker tonight. About time this week is over with, roll on the weekend.
Time is on my side today. Must use it wisely.
Looking back, its been an up and down week, but isnt every week?
Thursday 23 October 2008
Pacified
"To ease the anger or agitation of."
When you feel like you have dealt with the frustration, you made you choice, now you are getting on with it and you have some form of success.
Yeah I get angry, yes I get agitated. Not neccesarilly when things do not go my way, but when you can see a better option. Either directly involved with yourself or not.
How many times a day you speak to someone about what they are doing, how they are feeling and either decide to say your part to help, or not. Sometimes you say nothing either to keep the peace or simply because it may offend or hurt someone else. You think, but you do not act.
Maybe the instigator needs to do less instigating.
When you feel like you have dealt with the frustration, you made you choice, now you are getting on with it and you have some form of success.
Yeah I get angry, yes I get agitated. Not neccesarilly when things do not go my way, but when you can see a better option. Either directly involved with yourself or not.
How many times a day you speak to someone about what they are doing, how they are feeling and either decide to say your part to help, or not. Sometimes you say nothing either to keep the peace or simply because it may offend or hurt someone else. You think, but you do not act.
Maybe the instigator needs to do less instigating.
Open Your Eyes
One of my friends commented you are seeing the world differently, outside of the box.
Reminds me of a comment in the film, Matrix:
Neo : Why do my eyes hurt?
Neo blinks
Morpheus : You've never used them before.
Reminds me of a comment in the film, Matrix:
Neo : Why do my eyes hurt?
Neo blinks
Morpheus : You've never used them before.
Wednesday 22 October 2008
Mixing it Up
While watching Arsenal beat Fenerbahce 5 -2 last night, it got me thinking.
Instead of the "frustration" of it all, don't think, just do.
Why wait on someone else to make the decision, know the consequences of your actions and just "do it". Last night I made the decision, last night I thought sod this, I cant be done with the hassle, make your own mind up and stick with it. If you are unhappy, you did it, you made the choice.
Nice to be in that position to make your own choice. Some people dont get that option, they live with the choice that has been handed to them. They may give an arm or a leg for a different choice :)
But not today, today it's my choice....
Instead of the "frustration" of it all, don't think, just do.
Why wait on someone else to make the decision, know the consequences of your actions and just "do it". Last night I made the decision, last night I thought sod this, I cant be done with the hassle, make your own mind up and stick with it. If you are unhappy, you did it, you made the choice.
Nice to be in that position to make your own choice. Some people dont get that option, they live with the choice that has been handed to them. They may give an arm or a leg for a different choice :)
But not today, today it's my choice....
Tuesday 21 October 2008
Frustration
"a feeling of dissatisfaction, often accompanied by anxiety or depression, resulting from unfulfilled needs or unresolved problems"
We all feel down and for what ever reason you act differently. You dont know why, you just do. The mind is somewhere else, deep in thought thinking every single consequence of what if.
You hear that thing called "noise". You hear people talking, but its either just below or above what you care to hear.... my definition of noise.
As humans, we feel the need to either let go our feelings or store them in one place, never quite hitting the delicate balance. You want to say something, you destined to. But instead you either say nothing, or you say something out of context. Every word or comment is said the wrong way, you dont know why, its just does. Can never say the right thing at the right time.
But then there is the willingness to act. Either talk about it, create "noise" or just do it. Sometimes the "just do it" is just too much, you cant split multiple ways at the same time. Now that is frustration.
The choice of what, when, how you do it, with the least amount of consequence and look outside the box.
I do now, or I dont. But when I do, the choice will make a change. Either accept the change or dont do the doing of it.
Maybe the initiative to act is stronger than worrying about what affect it has. Maybe stop the initiative to learn, to progress, just do and think of more important things.
Then that way, you might learn something different.
We all feel down and for what ever reason you act differently. You dont know why, you just do. The mind is somewhere else, deep in thought thinking every single consequence of what if.
You hear that thing called "noise". You hear people talking, but its either just below or above what you care to hear.... my definition of noise.
As humans, we feel the need to either let go our feelings or store them in one place, never quite hitting the delicate balance. You want to say something, you destined to. But instead you either say nothing, or you say something out of context. Every word or comment is said the wrong way, you dont know why, its just does. Can never say the right thing at the right time.
But then there is the willingness to act. Either talk about it, create "noise" or just do it. Sometimes the "just do it" is just too much, you cant split multiple ways at the same time. Now that is frustration.
The choice of what, when, how you do it, with the least amount of consequence and look outside the box.
I do now, or I dont. But when I do, the choice will make a change. Either accept the change or dont do the doing of it.
Maybe the initiative to act is stronger than worrying about what affect it has. Maybe stop the initiative to learn, to progress, just do and think of more important things.
Then that way, you might learn something different.
And Now It Starts
Speaking to one of my friends at work, its about time I start blogging "stuff".
When you feel "meh" come here :)
When you feel "meh" come here :)
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