Okay thats it. Why did I choose to work here?
I thought I would start abruptly for a change...........
So, this animation lark. Sticking with it. It is my only goal. I have a week off in June to nail it. 9 days to sit there in front of my screens and learn. Get outta 'ere.
It is the only goal at the moment. Enough is enough. Right now its techno/electro music, a spot of doodling that gets me through the day. If I dont acheive in animation, I have nothing else to turn to, that is why it "MUST" happen...........
I will fight till the bitter end to "entertain" a new industry.
Monday 27 April 2009
Wednesday 1 April 2009
I Am Who I Am
I cant sleep, I cant eat. I am so frustrated, angry and generally annoyed.
Something happened on Monday I did not expect. The backstabbing bull that goes on just amazes me. You help, you advise and you do your best and for what, nothing.
Some part of me says revenge, an interesting word. Comprising of seven letters, seven sins. Another part says let it go, but I can not.
I cant help that my personality says, I get emotional charged, you deal with it and move on. But this is out of the normal. I don’t want to let it go. I want pure revenge, I want someone to feel so sick that they will never cross me again. My heart is on my sleeve, that’s me.
I know I would feel guilty for doing it but the blatant disregard tuned with my anger I just want to let it all go. My options are limited, I could jack it all in and say “sod it” why should I bother. I don’t want to work with people with a complete disregard or understanding of what I am trying to do.
In the current climate that is difficult. In the other hand I could use it as a catalyst to accelerate my plans to get out of here. That is what I normally do and is usually a foundation for me to push things forward.
I need time, I need to release some of these feelings that are just ready to explode. I know I have got to snap out of it before I do something stupid but at the moment I just……..
I say this from the heart because I am who I am.
Something happened on Monday I did not expect. The backstabbing bull that goes on just amazes me. You help, you advise and you do your best and for what, nothing.
Some part of me says revenge, an interesting word. Comprising of seven letters, seven sins. Another part says let it go, but I can not.
I cant help that my personality says, I get emotional charged, you deal with it and move on. But this is out of the normal. I don’t want to let it go. I want pure revenge, I want someone to feel so sick that they will never cross me again. My heart is on my sleeve, that’s me.
I know I would feel guilty for doing it but the blatant disregard tuned with my anger I just want to let it all go. My options are limited, I could jack it all in and say “sod it” why should I bother. I don’t want to work with people with a complete disregard or understanding of what I am trying to do.
In the current climate that is difficult. In the other hand I could use it as a catalyst to accelerate my plans to get out of here. That is what I normally do and is usually a foundation for me to push things forward.
I need time, I need to release some of these feelings that are just ready to explode. I know I have got to snap out of it before I do something stupid but at the moment I just……..
I say this from the heart because I am who I am.
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